still in office at this late hour. these days i've been staying back very late. It's been a tough year with my attachment of 2x a week at CSL.
Today marks the end of my training with Dr John Van Epp - A trainer whom I looked up to as his acheivements are what I aspire to do... He wrote a book on love and relationships that I've aspired to write (using Christian principles but to a public crowd) and he not just did it, his books, his trainings are so well-known. He's been known as the love and sex coach. Oh man... an area to my great interest that I have yet to imagine to aspire to that extent of achievement he has met! Guess it's good to meet him, so now, i have a benchmark to work towards.. & what made him more endearing is that, he's such a charismatic guy, he charmed the entire class with his thoughtfulness and sweet gestures to autograph every single book and chat with every single member! He's really so sweet.
He really inspired me to do my PHD so I can be like him, and write a book. but well, let me finish my long suffering MA first.
After all that saga of going for his trainings and talks, I do ask, God, what would my life be like? 5 years later, 10 years later, 20 years later? I cannot quite imagine or dare to dream.
In Dr John's training, he shared also about his life, his family, the death of his mother, father, his wife's battle with cancer.. it's so real that in the midst of all the achievements, yes, life has it's share of painful moments and moments we'll faced with our losses... I cannot imagine not just my life, but how my family will be like 5 years later, 10 years later, 20 years later.. I know i'll miss my grandma who may not be there to share my life, or my success all the way.. and i hope i'll not miss more members of my family than her then in my later years. But i know life is so so unpredictable...
If I would have the power, would I be willing to sacrifice all possible achievements just so I could spend togetherness with most of my family members? well.. I know this is beyond me to bargain with God.
If I could have my piece of cake and eat it, Lord, I wish I could do what I'm passionate in and do it well, and that my family would be with me to share that joy when that happens.
Though I cannot see how my life will turn out to be, whether I'll get a PHD, be recognized as a love guru (as i've fantasized) like the renouned Dr John...but.. somehow, I have the peace, tt the Lord will lead me to a path filled with His blessings.. Nothing outside of His will, will bring me satisfaction. And within His will, 'He has prepared a table for me'.. my ways & my future.
Bring me there O Lord... Mould my passion to be in line with your will and bless my ways for your glory... & in the midst of it, no matter what ups and downs, what losses I may go through... May your Grace be sufficient for me, for your strength is made perfect in my weaknesses...
In Jesus Name, Amen.
Today marks the end of my training with Dr John Van Epp - A trainer whom I looked up to as his acheivements are what I aspire to do... He wrote a book on love and relationships that I've aspired to write (using Christian principles but to a public crowd) and he not just did it, his books, his trainings are so well-known. He's been known as the love and sex coach. Oh man... an area to my great interest that I have yet to imagine to aspire to that extent of achievement he has met! Guess it's good to meet him, so now, i have a benchmark to work towards.. & what made him more endearing is that, he's such a charismatic guy, he charmed the entire class with his thoughtfulness and sweet gestures to autograph every single book and chat with every single member! He's really so sweet.
He really inspired me to do my PHD so I can be like him, and write a book. but well, let me finish my long suffering MA first.
After all that saga of going for his trainings and talks, I do ask, God, what would my life be like? 5 years later, 10 years later, 20 years later? I cannot quite imagine or dare to dream.
In Dr John's training, he shared also about his life, his family, the death of his mother, father, his wife's battle with cancer.. it's so real that in the midst of all the achievements, yes, life has it's share of painful moments and moments we'll faced with our losses... I cannot imagine not just my life, but how my family will be like 5 years later, 10 years later, 20 years later.. I know i'll miss my grandma who may not be there to share my life, or my success all the way.. and i hope i'll not miss more members of my family than her then in my later years. But i know life is so so unpredictable...
If I would have the power, would I be willing to sacrifice all possible achievements just so I could spend togetherness with most of my family members? well.. I know this is beyond me to bargain with God.
If I could have my piece of cake and eat it, Lord, I wish I could do what I'm passionate in and do it well, and that my family would be with me to share that joy when that happens.
Though I cannot see how my life will turn out to be, whether I'll get a PHD, be recognized as a love guru (as i've fantasized) like the renouned Dr John...but.. somehow, I have the peace, tt the Lord will lead me to a path filled with His blessings.. Nothing outside of His will, will bring me satisfaction. And within His will, 'He has prepared a table for me'.. my ways & my future.
Bring me there O Lord... Mould my passion to be in line with your will and bless my ways for your glory... & in the midst of it, no matter what ups and downs, what losses I may go through... May your Grace be sufficient for me, for your strength is made perfect in my weaknesses...
In Jesus Name, Amen.
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